It does not matter how long they have stayed. Every individual you see in your life, all influences your thoughts, your experiences and your life. You may not know them. You may not talk to them. You may not be in love. True to my experience, the feelings you might have, experiences you might have, thoughts you might think, all those things on which your life is depending on, get affected by all those people.
You cannot do anything about it. Because that is how your universe keeps the balance in the reality of your life.
So it is okay if you do not get to know someone or befriend with everyone or may be in love with the one. At least, unknowingly, that person got to be a part of your world and may be at least once you might have got to be the part of their thought.
Now, before you get overwhelmed about it, take a deep breath, inhale all of those good influences and exhale all those unnecessary over-thoughts. So that the universe can take care of everything else.
So, as usual, I was not able to sleep. As I tried to sleep early, could not push mind into the deep, it did not take long to the flood of thoughts to rush in. Like it was time for a revision of life happened yet. With each revision, I wonder how differently I think with new experiences and bubbles of many ideas floats in the air. Well, I can write a very brief summary of various things comes with the flood.
“I cannot believe the position where I am sitting on right now. Or am I standing somewhere? On my own feet! I cannot decide for sure. Sometimes it seems like I am flying. The thin air of coldness hitting on my face with a whisper into my ears. Or is it just a dream. A deep dream of a flight. But then, eventually, I have to return to the reality that I am just that ordinary guy with goggles on a face to look out for those nightmares.
A reality of balance. Dreams on one side, same amount of nightmares on another. A flight through cold thin air towards the warmth of the day which again starts with another cold night. That is the wave of the universe. To keep the balance in nature.”
Well, with a hope to keep balance in life, I am back on track.
Actually, pain is not the real problem. The actual problem starts when you start to like the pain and hurt yourself to feel it. And it does not end there. Eventually, you want others also to feel it. And it makes you do terrible things.
मेरे हर सासोंमे है तेरा नाम,
नाम के हर शब्द पर है मेरा ध्यान|
हर कदम पर उछल्ति है तेरि यादें,
उन यादों मे दुबि रहति है मेरि नज़रे|
चाहता हुं उन्हि सासोंमे कदम बढाए जाऊं,
तेरे साथ शब्दॊ कों युहिं बुन्ते जाऊं|
पता नहि क्युं सोचता हुं तेरे बारें में,
सोचता हुं बस जीना चाहता हुं तेरे दिल में|
यह दिल तो है हि प्यार का भिकारि,
एक हि सोच मे बलिदान हो जाति है प्यार कि अमीरी|
याद तो बोहोत कर लिये पुरानि बातें,
क्युं न हो जाये और भि नये मुलाकाते|
तेरे एक नाम से झलक उठति है यादें पुरानि,
अब क्युं न हो जाये और भि नयि नयि|
हवा गुंज रही है ऐसे,
गुनगुना रही है कुछ पंक्तियाँ।
फैल रही है ऐसे,
कह रही है कुछ कहानियाँ।
किरणें उड़ रहे हैं ऐसे,
जैसे आखों ने किये हो इशारें।
इशारों पर नाचति आखें,
जैसे समुंदर के दो किनारें।
मत लिखना और नाम इस रेत पर,
खींचति है वह लहरे किनारे।
मिटते नहि यह नाम पल भर,
जब तक किनारे ना भीग जाये पूरे।
छा गये बादल काले काले से,
तेज़ हवा है भीगि भीगि।
बिजली गरजति है तोड के,
लहरें बनती है ऊँचि ऊँचि।
गिरती बूंदों के धार से,
भीगते है किनारे, भीगता है नज़ारा।
एक एक कण भीगि रेत कि,
मांगती है एक हाथ का सहारा।
आसमाँ उजला, किनारे उजले,
उगते सूरज के किरणों से।
चम चमाते दो मोति उगले,
तितली के पंखों जैसे।
हवा गुंज रही है ऐसे,
गुनगुना रही है कुछ नयी पंक्तियाँ।
फैल रही है ऐसे,
कह रही है कुछ नयी कहानियाँ।
Originally posted at my old blog in March, 2014