Here I am, sitting in my favourite chair at my apartment, working on my computer very remotely, listening to my favourite music and sipping hot coffee in my favourite mug.
It is cold in here. I can literally feel my cold feet. This outskirt of Bengaluru is so open space that let the wind blow freely. Trees nearby make the weather cooler than inside the city.
Recently, I have been listening to Sweaters by Ivan B. This song literally gives me chills. The very first 2 lines tell exactly what I am looking for. The more I listen to the song, I realise it is not only about me. I have to help my loved ones too with their sweaters.
Well, life has been very cold over the years. It is unfair to learn so late that the world is unfair and cold. The world owes you nothing in return, only but to freeze your mind to a stone-cold. I also have been sewing a sweater for myself. But this is one no easy to sew either. Because you know there is no easy sewing machine for this sweater. There were times I was not sure about this hand sewed sweater. Because it gets torn off very easily. But I just want to live my life and not to give in to the cold. So every time I started again, although I can sew a stronger sweater it takes even longer than the anticipation.
I know, the weather is never going to change. Never going to be better. Even if I complete the sweater, the chills always go in through hand and neck holes. But that is okay, right. Better than being stone-cold.
If you also want to listen to the song, I have embedded it for you below from Soundcloud.
I hate that I was not there when she needed someone to hold onto. She was lost within a strange world. Alone. Not able to talk about her feelings. She used to tell me that she was being alive and going through her nightmarish life, only for me. I did not know what to respond to that. I was only 14. I wish I could have given her more courage to live on, not only for me but also for herself.
I hate that she is not here when I need her most. Today, I kinda feel like, lost within a strange world. I wish if she was here to tell me how she managed to go through her nightmares. To teach me how to be more courageous when no one else stands aside to you. How to praise loneliness as your friend and play with her. How to spread only love, respect, joy and courage even if everyone else stands opposite in circle and points finger at you. I can only wish now.
But I do not want to give up. I want to live for her. I do not want her given life to be lost in a void for nothing. Just as she was holding onto all the courage for me, I want to hold onto that courage, before it will be my time to meet her again.
Until then, I am going to miss her my entire lifetime.
Its after midnight. 1:40 AM. Outside dogs are barking and crows are crowing. Cold weather chilling out post a heavy rain. I am hungry, feeling sleepy, sitting on my sofa, laptop on my lap and going through some blog posts. Cannot read all of them right now. As I said, I am feeling very sleepy. But something kept me up while reading some of them and then sparked a tiny motivation to write something on my own blog.
Life is changing. Again. Sometimes, I am onto something. Sometimes, it feels like I lost everything. I know, that is how it is. There will be moments where people make you feel like you are wrong. That your feelings are impulsive. Sometimes they say you are not thinking enough. Other times, probably talking to yourself.
But hey, I am learning. I am trying to understand from those coming in the way, what I have to go through in and what should be moved aside. I guess, that is how it should be. I feel like I need to think before I decide anything. Contemplating on others’ suggestions, thoughts, experiences before creating my own. I know I will not regret if I decide to go one way or another because the final destination would mine and mine only. No one is going to ask for their share of that once they done talking. Still, I need to be sure before I go anywhere.
But, now I am sure about certain things. That, one way or other way around, I am not going to give up anymore. I am done waiting for the right time to come and cool down the fear. No matter what happens now, I am gonna go where I want to go.
There are so many things to read and many thoughts to write. When I come back to house after a long day, look at the books and magazines perfectly arranged vertically in a horizontal row in the book shelf, I want to forget everything else and just dive into them and swim through pages for hours. Unfortunately, I cannot. I just cannot forget about work, food, health, sleeping, cleaning, washing, taking garbage out,… ufff!! Give me a break, please! There are countless other things to take care of.
10 years back, it was a time when blogging was at it’s hype. Everyone wanted to create blog and invite others to read it. Following and commenting on blogs was fun. Now, social networks platforms are at the hype. Today, different types of new social network services are being emerged in very short time. Well, I think, in a way, that actually helped all of the true blogging communities (ignoring organisational blogs and those for marketing purpose). At least now people do not create blogs and leave them to rotten anymore with just one welcome post.
I was doing B.Com. along with another animation and multi-media course. I was very much excited about all interesting stuffs about computers. I used to visit some of internet cafes available at the time in my local town to learn more things on internet and about internet itself. But even that was limited because after coming back to home I could not learn more. And I had to wait until I could go next time.
I was using my web address krsh.in for quite some time. It was a little difficult for others to understand when had to spell it. They always wondered about an ‘i’ in the address. I had to confirm twice that it was not a mistake.
Anyway, it is going to be expired soon. So this time instead of renewing it, I decided to change the web address. I wanted it to be more representation of my name without any missing alphabet. And by this time the .dev domain has been available for the public. So I tried with krish.dev and also krish.in. But both have already been taken and no longer available. Now I had to come up with some “creative” name. After some thoughts and a few options, I decided to go with iamkrish.dev.
In the address bar type about:config and press enter.
Accept the risk involved while making changes.
Search for mousewheel.acceleration.start
By default its value should be -1 which indicates the option is disabled. To enable, change its value to 0 by double-clicking on it.
Comparing to Google Chrome, Firefox has very slow scrolling speed for web pages. It is smoother than Chrome but not just fast enough. So I usually go for the scroll bar, which needs little more effort. Move the cursor to grab that scroll stick and drag the mouse up & down.
You know that our universe, which contains our earth, sun, other stars, planets surrounding these stars, our Milky Way galaxy, other galaxies, everything you name it; is expanding. Thanks to Georges Lemaître and Edwin Hubble who figured out about the expansion.
What does it mean? It means, our earth along with its residents, actually floating and moving, within its own galaxy, through the very basic fabric of the universe. Can you imagine? We are not staying still in one position. WE ARE MOVING! Literally through space and time. If you look at the whole picture, everything is moving. And that is how the universe works.
Why just following a diet plan (I know it’s dreadful) is not enough to lose weight?
Why workout is more important?
What does it really mean to lose weight? Where does it go anyway?
When you think about it, it seems, well, it might get turned into a sweat so let’s stay in a very hot room or put a sauna belt around the waist. It gets out when you urinate so let’s drink more water and keep going to the restroom. Or you might think it gets converted into energy so let my stomach do the job when I watch my favourite series.
Now spend just 30 mins and watch this 5 years old TEDx Talks video to understand that spending some time for workout can help more, rather than just following a diet plan or a belt.